Deeah's Life

Im single !

2010-10-25T04:01:00.001+08:00

I broke Up with HIM with a bruise on my arm and Cheek ..

He punched me ..!

He slapped me ..!

He grabbed my arm till it hurts ..!

He pushed me to the ground .. !

I was so stupid !!

So stupid to fall in love with such a GUY !!!

ARRGHH !!

Unforgetable Moment

2010-10-20T02:20:00.002+08:00

Heyy peeps ,

Last night , I had an unforgetable moment ..

I had an accidnt which i truly cant imagine ..

IT hurts me alot ..

Wen i fell of the bike, My head just spin .. and i ust wanna go to sleep ..

But thx to my frends and boyfee , im still able to open my eyes ??

my palm , hand , knee , leg and feet are wounded ..

swollen .. cant walk normally ...

haist !!

pray ferr me to gt well soon ....

wat should i do ??

2010-10-10T09:32:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps , It has been a while since i do blogging ..

Been busy lately and m nt so active in blogging ..

Ferstly , I have a new job now ...

I now werking in SPC (Singapore Petroleum Company)
Werking as a Sales Asistance , Cashier ..

Job , Ok luhh ... But Boss , abit CroCUP !! hah !!
Boss need some temper management i guess ..
HEHE !! No offence uhk boss .. =))
At ferst , i tot boss abit racist ...
But after recently , boss was so kind to me ..
Im glad about that though ...

Secondly ,

I have been fighting wit bf s per normal .... (not normal luhh ) !

haist !! He uhk , attitude like gerl u know ....
So hard arhh like that ...
he made mistake , i scold him ... He attitude ..
GRR !!!

Then i caught him contact with ther gerl luhhh ..
Paitao me his own gerl fren luhh ..

How can this be ??
Im so sick and tired of fighting ..
Sumbody , sumone ...

HElp me find a solution ..

I have tried everything ...
i've tried to calm down , slow talk , keeping quite ..
Still , it doesnt werk ...

He's getting out of hand now ..
I dunno wat to do .
haist !!

=((

seriosly , help me find a solution please !!

Yours truly ,
Nadiah

Cinta Kita Shireen Wisnu.avi

2010-08-11T00:55:00.000+08:00

2010-07-13T02:24:00.000+08:00

Ì lost u once ,

Í lost u twice,

Í lost u many times !

And now , We are back together ...

I dont wish to Lose u ONCE AGAIN !

I love you Baby !!!

Unforgetable moments

2010-03-15T18:02:00.004+08:00

I dont why i just think of him .. Secare tibe2 .. I dont know if he already

found sumone better then me ... As i can see , he has been avoiding me totally ...

He didnt even smile nor say Hi to me ..

He just turned and walked off ..

Feel so heatbreaking ...One year of knowing each other and be together ..

Next , He just pretend that he didnt know me ..

Guess that he has a replacement ...

I stil kept his last words to me ..

I still bear that in mind .. And still hoping that its the truth ..

People say , If you love a person , Let them be happy

and let them find theit happiness ...

If he's happy , im happy too ..

I made a video ...

Still thinking ..........

Should i give it to him ??

Hmmmm ....

The relationship between me and him is so unforgetable.

I dont know why .. He's like already there in my heart and i cant take him ofF .

No matter how or wat i did/do , He is still there ...

I tried replacing him ... But i just cant .. he is the only one for me ...

Aku CINTA DIA ! Tapi , aku taq boleh ikat dier . He needs his freedom ...

Haist ...

Why are we separated just because of all those misunderstanding .?

-_-"

Resort Worls Sentosa

2010-03-03T00:33:00.005+08:00

Ouhk . Im now werking at Sentosa Universal Studios . Fun sia werking at there .

yes its tiring .. But the fun is amazing ! Hees .

Here are some of the pics i can share .. =)

Far Far Away the Only Princess Fiona and Shrek Castle

Jurassic Lost world

Us At Outlet

Madagascar !

This is the Waffle cone My frens was about to make .. Apparently, The machine just "piak" the waffle .. We Jie . U so Funny !=)

Updating.......

2010-03-02T00:22:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating ...

I got nutink to say .

the only thing i shld say was , Ashar berubah . Aku berubah .
Ashar taq lyn aku , Aku tried to lyn dier .
Tuh jerh ..
k
Bye !

Up and Down

2010-02-09T23:49:00.001+08:00

Up and down i goes ..
Like a roller coaster rolling upside down ..
My life is in such a mess ..
Cant help it, But just to endure .

Im so fCUKing stress with my life .
Why cant i just lead a happy life like the others do ?
Ader mataer Happy . Taqder mataer pon HAPPY !
Why uhk ppl Like to put salt on my wound ?? KENTOT uhk !
I tried to brace myself up with laughter and happiness . But it still doesnt help ...

My mum Lecture me about Ashar and Koko . I just dont know . I dont wanna go thru hard tyme with Ashar anymore . I love koko . Yes i do . But there are so many things i heard abt him that really hurt me alot .

I dont know wat to say already .

=(

Yesterday

2010-01-23T17:45:00.007+08:00

Yesterday , I broke up with ashar because of Koko and Fahmi .

About Koko,
> He msg me thru my phone saying that he miss me and everything . But i ignore wat .

About Fahmi ,
> He msg me saying syg here and there . But i say siaow , biol or gyler to him wat .
> He told me that he say syg because it make him feel happy . He cannot mrh2 or sedih due to heart problem .
> So , i Hack care .

I wanted to explain to him . But he just say to me "Aku Ashar , Kau Nadiah . Dah taq ader DEESHAR lagy ."

I was shocked and stay numb .. Tears just fall down my cheeks . I couldnt say much . So i just walked off and go .. Seeing him cycle away was so heart breaking .

Just a small note for him .
>> I miss you ashar . Take care of yourself . Be happy with the one you love .. Or should i say , be happy with sarah ?? ... Haist . Goodbye DEESHAR . ='(

Takin cares ,
Dee

Bye .

God , Who is the best fer me ?

2010-01-22T11:19:00.003+08:00

Im so not into love love .! But , i have ashar by myside now ...

But then , im still confused !

Who is the best fer me ?
Who can make me happy ?
Who is willing to be with me ?
Even though im hot-tempered ?

I know Ashar cant hold back any longer !
I dont know !!!!

Haost .. Let leave it to FATE !

Ouh yah !!
Btw , I MISS WANSHA LUHH !!!!!!!!!!
dier punyer gyler2 luhh kn !!!
Rindu dok ! RINDUUUUUUUUUUUU !!!

Ouhk2 , Til here .!
Buh bye !

Celebrating Countdown 2009 !

2009-12-31T06:08:00.003+08:00

Hey peepz !

As for today countdown , I never go anywhere as my STUPID BLOODY IDIOT BOYFREND are going out with his FRIENDS ! I had everything planned !

Just for him. And because of HIS F***ing ATTITUDE , Sallehan was unable to go to ! Sorry kecik ! Kwn kau mmg mcm sial !

My plannned for today is
Meet up at 2.30 pm at lot 1 . When everybody dah aderh , Then we head to town area , go eat2 and jalan , THEN HEAD TO THE PLACE WHERE MY STUPID BLOODY IDIOT BOYFRIEND NEVER GO BEFORE ! That is Marina Barage !

After planning out everything , dpt tahu dier ikut plan kawan dier ! FUCK UP right !
Honestly , I had enough with his nonsence ! Im not going to look or find him animore !
DIer nk ngn aku , dier cari uhk ! Dlm tempoh seminggu , dier taq cari jugak , DEN BYE-BYE I should say ...

Plan B , Maybe ajak Kecik out , tgk Bunga Api jerh . AS THAT FUCKER Pergy dgn kwn dier ! Itu pon kalo kecik taqder plan . Kalo taq , ngn Fiza luhh kn .. See luhh how later .

Will update again yeah .

Byee !

LoveHeartandLust

2009-12-19T18:28:00.006+08:00

keep thinking about you day and night! =)
Can't resist that you BELONG to ME ! =)
Can't accept the fact that I love you ! =)
Can't help it if i cant meet you everyday ! =)
Hoping For you to be by myside when i woke up ! =)
My heart only belongs to you and ONLY YOU ! =)
Baby don't leave me right here alone , NO matter what happen !

Cause,

You're everything that i have ...
Never betray one another aites ..

Love you like hell BABY !

MUHAMED ASHAR BIN ABU BAKAR

(MY BABYDARLING)

Can we trust our friends ?

2009-11-12T02:54:00.002+08:00

I lost my fucking phone . And Its not that i left it sumwhere .. But sumone took it and dont wanna admit ..
Haist ..... Friends ? Can they be trusted ?
No !
Because , i can see an example from my Step sister . She stole her own friend hp , wallet , PSP and etc ..

Yeah ... Friends cannot be trusted fully ..
for wat the hell they wan my hp ?
Taqder paper perh .
I cant believe this is happening . I trusted them .. and even if i left it there with them , they should have returned it to me when i came looking for it wat .

Haist ...

I'll be missing that phone !
All my contacts are gone ...
And !!!
Luckily , i remember his num !
My baby love !
Hes an angel in my eyes . But not to others who dony know him yet ..
KECHIK STAR ! MISS YOU BABY !

What have i done ?

2009-11-08T23:30:00.001+08:00

what have i done ?
Whats wrong with me ?
Is this wat it called busted ?
I'm sorry .
I dont meant to .
Its ok if cant forgive me ..
i'll give up .
So sorry in anyway ..

2009-11-05T19:31:00.001+08:00

Speak up , i had enuf ....
Baby speak up ... do you love me or hate me ..
Speak up baby speak up ..
Because i can never tel , i can never tell ...

Huuuu ~!!

Open up your mind cos baby i'm listening !

Suara Ku Berharap

2009-11-03T02:43:00.004+08:00

Disini aku masih sendiri

Merenungi hari-hari sepi

Aku tanpamu,

Masih tanpamu ..

Bila esok hari datang lagi

Ku coba untuk hadapi semua ini

Meski tanpamu meski tanpamu

Bila aku dapat bintang yang berpijar,

mentari yang tenang bersamaku disini

Ku dapat tertawa, menangis, merenung

Di tempat ini aku bertahan

Suara dengarknlah aku

Apa khabarnya pujaan hatiku

Aku disini menungguya

Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Suara dengarknlah aku

Apakah aku selalu dihatinya

Aki disini menunggunya

Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Kalau ku masih tetap disini

Ku lewati semua yang terjadi

Aku menunggumu, Aku menunggumu ...

2009-10-26T04:35:00.005+08:00

Hey peeps .....

I LOVE THIS GUY ! YES I DO ...

BUT , for wat ??

Love him will only be for a couples of days .. And after that ... Feeling so hurt deep down ??
I love him because he make me changed , and after all the hard work of changing , this happen ..

After like only a few days of R/s , We fight ... just because of this gerl .?
Wat the hell ... You Bitch ! Because of you sucker ! Its all Because of you ..

We fought .. Worse , I say that i wan a break up .. Though i can still say that i love him dearly ..
And for wat for all those feeling .? He dont even CARE .. He dont even care to approach me and
talk to me . Ashar , because of you im like ths ! Dont you know how jealous and frustrated i was ?
Ah , Guys .... They dont even know how we gerls feel ... This love SUCKS .. I cant take it animore . Ashar doesnt even have the initiative to talk and faced me ..
Thanks Ashar .. Now i know who are you .. And i can still remember the day we fight at Marsiling .. You shout and even push me .. Guess that, that is you .. Cant changed you ... yah i know .. You are always right wat ... you know everytink wat ... ouhkae luhh .... Hoppe you are happy this way aite .. If you still not satisfied or wat so ever .. Feel free to call me or msg .. But that doesnt meant i will reply you . See luhh hoe the situation ..

Alrite Nadiah Changed topic ..
Ouhk , You wana know wat i have experienced just know ? It like 3.20 i reach at tasek Bp , i was like sitting down and think about this problem ... Then all of the sudden , i feel the fear .. Dont know why .. Feel like there sum1 or sumtink is looking at me .. And YEAH theres SUMTINK !!
Like wat the Hell!! Like i say , i was sitting down .. And when i turn to my left , i saw that white tingy just right at the end .. I was so fucking shock annd of cause scared ... i was shivering and it does not stop .. Getting nearer have luhh !! I reach out for my phone and called Fadli .. They was running to Tasek when i saw "pretty lady" opposite of me .. walking slowly from one end to the other ! I was so Damn scared you know . Was praying in my heart . And i can tell you that i cant move at all ... Until Fadli is getting nearer .. The moment i can move , i just ran for all i care towards fadli .. Tears was going to drop sia !!! Bloody hell ting .. Still shivering now ... Cant imagine wat has happen .. Grrrgh ..

ouhk .. story end already .. no more to say .. well , Goodnigt!

Muhammad Iskandar Bin Ismail

2009-10-06T01:02:00.004+08:00

Iskandar Bin Ismail ,

The Buruk siku Guy !! Dah kasi HP den dier mintak balik . Mcm Sial !!

Bodoh kn ?? Kn name Sendiri dah buruk .. Sial ..

To all GERLS , Be wary of this guy ..

You'll be the next if this happen again ..

Parangai mcm sial .. Gigi dah Bogey .. Gigi dier mcm cerita Lilo and Stich ..

Hmm ..

Kau pk kau bnyk handsome ? Pergy JALAN DAH !!

This is just a little about him ..

Theres alot more bad things about him that i dont wanna talk anout .. Buat sakit hati jerh ! !

Bye~

IMY IMY IMY

2009-10-05T02:02:00.000+08:00

IMY BABY ! Cant help it ! Cant carry on like this ! I dont know how to avoid this feeling !

I Nid And advice !!!!

2009-10-03T21:23:00.003+08:00

I have been missing you .. So badly till i cant control it no more .
Why must you give me the hope ?? My frend told me this "never cling on to the past and just look forward , and im sure you'll be happy".. I tried .. But the more i tried , i will always be reminded of him . Why? haist .. He gave me the hope . And when sumone told me to make a wish , i did .. But it will not come true .. I swear it wont . Its just a junk wish !! Like wth . It hurtz me badly . Those stuff !! Like arrgh .. Can say no more . Tink i shld folow wat my frend just told me this afternoon .

look on to the bright sight nadiah . he's gone now .. Come on . Forget him !! I know you can do it !

Ouhk now i'm crazy .. hmmmmm ~

Worst day !

2009-10-02T02:30:00.004+08:00

Today , right now , i cant sleep .. Mi big sister is having this problem with the unseen ... All of the sudden she felt hot (bahang/panas) while she is playing the computer .. Den ibu (my mum) asked Zali ( abg Frend) to take a look .. When Zali just stand behind her , she just Shout and scream like mad women . And all of the sudden i felt so seram sejuk .. Feeling so cold and scared , i hug my sisters . So damn terkejut you know !

Ouhk , den suddenly Zali shout .. we shocked and ibu asked all of us to stay inside the room and dont go out . here i am in here playing the comp . heh ...

Ouhk ..Time for me to go to bed ., Getting scared liao .. =

Bye~

Yesterday

2009-09-30T02:43:00.003+08:00

Yesterday werk was so damn tired ! I cant take it .. Soo tired till i raise my voice at auntie Mary (Mama) and auntie ah Mui (mamy) .. Sorry !! =D

At around 5.30, Wani went home .. suppossingly she ends at 8 but then she knock off early because one of her fam was awarded in the hospital . AND , went we are about to close our kiosk , there's this two cuatomer still looking at out mooncakes ... The first one bought 10 boxes of snowskin mooncakes .. And all the mooncakes we put in the chiiller for the customer to pick and go , FINISH !! excpt for a little luhh .. =D

Den this second customer , VERY FUSSY !!! Even auntie mary and auntie ah Mui CANNOT TAHAN .. Here goes the story ..

Customer: Can you recommend me which is nicer ?
Mary: This , This and This . (taking the flavour)
Customer: Ouh .. Ok .. Really uhk ??
Mary: Yes . (nodding her head)
Customer: haiyah.. I dont know leh ... Ah girl girl .. (calling for me) Can you tell me which one is good??
Me: This this and this lah .. (showing wat mary had showed)
Customer: Ouh .. ok .. Really uhk ??
Me: YES ! (Still Smiling HORH!)
Customer: Got Durian ?
Me: Left One ma'am
Customer: Haiyah !!! I WAN DURIAN !! WHY NO MORE DURIAN !!! (raising her voice)
Me and Mary: Because durian FINISH only left one !!!

Customer insist on durian !! At last give up and just take wat we recommend!!
But still tinking !! Then the ferst customer just made the payment .. So i help her carry all the moponcakes to the taxi stand .. Intention wanted to run away from that customer .. Heheh ... ;)

When i came backe the second customer GONE !! Bought the one we recommended her ..
When we are packing up to go home , SHE CAME BACK !!!! Wanted to change the small box to big box ! Grrrgh ! Its like already wat tyme ? And only us POLAR not CLOSED and DONE with our CLOSING !! Stupid customer !!! Because of you i late !! Waaaah ~ ~!

Here are some of the pictures i took with the Polar's and even customer !! =D

Heeees ! Good Ryte Us ?? =)

Den i wanna say that I miss sumone .. He just came back and he only msg me he reach home already .. den , NEVER !! Haist !

Nadiah ! Stop IT LUHH !!

Errrgh

2009-09-29T09:06:00.001+08:00

I hate this kind of feeling !

Getting angry ?! Argh ! Shld have not go there and find you !

CB !

2009-09-28T03:03:00.003+08:00

Sesungguhnya aku benar2 mencintaimu ,megapa harus ini yang menimpa dlm hidup ku ?
Sesungguhmya kau adalah untuk ku , mengapa ada org ketiga ?
Ini kah namanya CINTA ? Atau ini hanya di katakn CINTA MONYET ?
Jika ini adalah CNTA MONYET , mengapa begitu sukar bagi ku untuk melupakna mu ?
Aku mencintai mu , tetapi mengapa kamu anggap itu semua ilusi ? Begitu pahit di hati melihat engkau pergi meninggalkan ku keseorangan !

Grrrr !

Berjiwang pulak aku !! hah !!

kae2 , actuali idk wat to say ... Days are nutink but WERK WERK WERK ! Tired You know !
Feels like being treated like a dog ! I'm NOT a DOG you know !! Ass !! why must we go up and down ? Whereas you up there serving customer and etc .. Grrr ..!

See now i lazy wanna werk .. New people are always tend to get BULLIED !!!!
I can tolerate NO MORE with this Polar Company!

Hmmph !!!

OK .. Thats alL i wanna Say .. =D

Bye~

I misss you

2009-09-25T03:48:00.005+08:00

If only you read my blog . i'm sure you would understand how i feels .. i cant help it . my mind just cant stop tinking about you . Why ? i'm feelin soo down right now .. i cant stop tinking why must you do this ? yes i know you are stress as you told me so .. but i dont know .. and i keep on going back on my words .. i know i said we will be frends .. but my heart cant take it . i was hoping that we will be together .. i know how you feel .. but please . tink about how others feels too . when i saw you , i just cnt stop crying .. i just cant . when will it stop ? it hurts me dont you know that ? if you already have another gal , why must you bought me all that expensive stuff ? why papa ?? we were so closed ! soo closed to open a new book .. and now ? its all gone .. all the gift you bought for me .. they are here and there .. it was always with me .. how can i forget about you like this ? the memories we had . it was unforgetable . At the keppel bay .. at greenridge shooping centre .. under my block .. at the park .. EVERYWHERE !! everywhere i go will always be reminded of you .. how am i suppossed to forget ? Dont you know how much i loves you and want you ? YES .. I looked like a desperate women ... how can i not ? you gave hope when i was about to fall .. you gave me that .. why must you come back when i was about to put all the psat behind me ? Papa ... i used to call you , and mama you used to call me .. junior .. The bear we name it when you bought it and we even made it together .. i wonder .. how did you just put all that behind you .. You truly hurts me . Papa .. I'll always loved you ... i love you till i'll forget that it ever happen .. A replacement wont be made after all this had happen . even if there is a replacement , it still wont be the same.. the loves story we had together .. i will always remembers .. Now , i hope you will find your true love and be happy .. And i'll be happy when you are happy .. New lesson i truly learnt .. To let your loved one go for the sake of their happiness .. Thank you for all the gift you bought for me ..

Goodbye love !! Goodbye Papa .. I'll miss you i swear to god !

How could YOU !

2009-09-25T03:12:00.002+08:00

I miss you ! I Miss YOU ! I MISS YOU !!!

HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME ?

HOW COULD YOU !

YOU SAID THEY ARE ONLY FRENDS ??

WHY MUST YOU LIED ??

WHY PAPA WHY ??

HAIST !

I TRUSTED YOU !

I WAS SO STUPID TO HAVE TRUSTED YOU !

YOU SAID YOU LOVE ME !!!

WAT THE FUCK IS THIS !

NABEH CB !!!!!!!

Haist

2009-09-24T03:16:00.004+08:00

I told myself to changed ! Changed for the better .. And i did try my best .. I really do .. Den i told myself again , not to fight w him as ilh .. And promise myself to love him whole-heartedly . I take every single word he said seriously .. From the begining till the end ... I was hoping for the new chapter to start ... And now ?? I lost hope .. I know that there is no hope for us .. But don't you know that you're the one who is giving me the hope ?? And now it shatters ! Just like a glass falls to the ground .. Thats how my heart shattered .. How could you do that ?? You dont have to lie to me .. Why must you ??? I cant believe that ! The trust you once break was about to joint back .. And you break it once again .. You already have her .. But u still wan me .. Its like WT ..... Please .. Stop and dont ever2 play with my heart agian .. It was painful .. Dont you know that ?? Haist ... I cried for you , you're the one whom i cried the most for .. Why must you did this to me ?? Why .?? Why must you keep on hurting me whem i'm trying to change for you ?? I cant take it .. Wat shld i do ?? Leave you ??? How to when my heart still says that i love you ?? Haist ... I just cant decide .. U already say BYE to me .. Wat shld i say back ?? Goodbye ?? And giving up already ?? Please somebody .. Find a solution for me ... I cant tink myself ... my brain is playing with me .. And i cnt tink straight ! Arrrgh !!!

I'm sorry PAPA !!!

2009-09-24T01:44:00.002+08:00

Kiwak !! mendak perh aku ... !!!!

3rd Day of Raya

2009-09-23T01:57:00.007+08:00

Haist , Hari ketiga pon kene keje .. Panat Pulak tuh! FUH !!!

Den I have to count the stock and etc ... Sikit perh pening .. waduh2 ... boleh mampos tahu .! Lepas tuh kn , aku kene kemas tmpat tuh .. Taq organise betol uhk dorang nie .. Brg sumerh bersepah ... Haiyoh !!!

Den after werk , My bestfrend fetch me .. Haha ..

Swit kn ?? Haha !

Best frend since Primary 5!

Den We went back to BP .. Meet My Sister Who is werking at KFC ..

The Superh Kecyk Sister !!

Kae , Mylife was boring .. Hah .. So wat ? At least i have some great frends Who makes me Laugh !!

I LOVE YOU GUYS !!!

And , I miss hanging out with Herwan , Iqbal and Raj .! Haist ! Sorry Guys !

Photos

2009-09-21T03:12:00.017+08:00

GAMBAR - GAMBAR !!

Iskandar (at Cineleisure)

Ashar ( at LJS )

Fisrt Day Of Raya !

Rumah Bukit Panjang

Rumah Choa Chu Kang

~Rayyan Risky Bin Adnan~

Rumah West Coast

Wish Selamat Hari Raya

Maaf Zahir

Dan Batin !!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

2009-09-20T13:47:00.012+08:00

Wishing All Muslimin and Muslimat,

Selamat Hari Raya maaf Zahir dan Batin !!

Harap semua kesalahanku terhadap kanu-kanu di ampuni ..

Halal Kn Makan Minum Ku yerh !!

Hope all of you forgive my mistake ..

And make my food and drink halal ..

happy Birthday Fadzilah

2009-09-16T01:58:00.003+08:00

Ouhk ,
I start to werk at polar puff and cakes on 14 September 2009 ..
I was so damn tired u know !! Errrrgh ... Taq boley angkat siot ! kau berdiri ajerh .. Waduh waduh ... Den2 , i Like this puff tao .. its black pepper .. YUMYUM !! =D
haha .. nih ferst tyme tau aku makan tuh puff ... hmmmm ... Den2 Nk mkn pon aderh susah nyer ... kene duduk bersila kat situ and makan .. so taq the senonoh kn ... customer sumerh nampak ... Blehhh ...

AND AND !!!

Happy 17th berfday to FADD SPONGEBOB !!! (betol taq spelling ??)
Wish you all the best for your IA and hope you're happy always and throw away all your trouble yang memeningkn kepale tuh ..! Ouhk Fadd ?? Heh ...

BYE !!!

Separation

2009-09-12T17:28:00.003+08:00

Haist ... Today , i break up with Ashar .. I was harsh , and i didnt meant to .. when i woke up , he asked asmida to check my phone just to know where i go early in the morning. Taq mcm sial ?
Then he said that he taq sukerh budak2 BP .. Den blahblahblah ... after that i said asl nk lari kn diri ? smpai bilerh nak lari kn diri ? From there kiter gado .. because he dont want to lyn me .. You tell me uhk who's happy when they msg sumone , but they never reply den they only kol you after so many hours of waiting .. Like wtf kn ?

i was so bingit den i lafaz kn bende yg taq sepatut nyer di luah kn . Haist ! taq mcm sial ? My perangai mcm sial .! Haist .. You i mintak maaf .. I harap you maaf kn i .. You , i tahu i bnyk buat silap .. i tahu i bnyk kasi u mrh .. I mintak maaf .. adn i tahu u dah takkn pandang i lagy ... I hope you can find sumone hu is much2 better than me aites ? I'm so sorry ..

To wansha :

Sheril rindu kao . Aku tatawu nk ckp aperh .. And , so soorry kalo aku dah bnyk susah kn kao .. Pasal aku dgn Ashar .. Aku rahu aku dah bnyk susah kn kao . Maafkn aku eyk ?? Haist .. Aku seriously pk aku and ashar can last long . tapi , aku dgn dier slalu gaduh .. and aku slalu mulekan .. Haist . Aku rase aku taq layak untuk dier . Aku still hope yang kiter sumerh masih berkawan and samerh mcm dulu .. sebelum aku matair ngn ashar .. Hasit .. Ko tolong aku jager kn ashar ..

Maafkn semuer silap aku ..

4 days ago ..

2009-09-11T20:40:00.002+08:00

On 8 September 2009

I went out with Iskandar .. I was so fcuking happy that day .. Hees ... (jgn mrh)
Here goes .. We went to vivo city .. The ferst think we reached there , he was hungry and wanted to grab a bite ... So we head to LJS ... Which is my favourite fast food . So , after we ate , we walked around and jokes here and there .. Feels like we are an item .. But then, we are just frends . Yeah frens .. While we are walking around , he is finding one shop .. Wen i asked him , he said a baloon shop . Like WTF ... haha .. When we are walking , we came across this build-a-bear store ... I said that i wanted to have a look .. And guess wat ? He was actually finding that shop . haha .. Den he bought the teddy . Haha . All the pictures dgn Is .. So cnnt Show !! Soo cute you know !! haha .. It 43 Centimetres and 244 grams , the fur colour are tan and eye colour brown .. ! haha .. Can you imagine how cute it is ? haha .. Ouhk ...

later that night , Asmida give me sumtink that was not supposed to be given !! Ashar beaded bracelets i made for him!! Like wtF!!! Den i was confused ! Wat did i do wrung !! hmmm ... Den i msg him at 3 plus in the morning he never reply .. Like BAHHH ~!!! So i waited till next day ...

9 September 2009

This day , i never go anywhere .. Till mlm nyer .. I go to gr and fetch Ibu .. after that fetch asmida . I msg ashar saying that i wana mit him .. so we met and we fight ! like WTF ... my mistake ?? Actually just because i never update him about me on 8 September .. How to ?? My ppd empty wat ... Errrgh .. So we fight like hell .. Tot of giving up . Couldnt take it you know ...
And i say to myself .. If we fight again , den there will be no more chance in me nor him ..
So we fight till next day ..

10 Spetember 2009

Den this day , i also never go anywhere as i wake up quite late ... just play comp and watch TV .. Den that night My sister ija came back home from our father house . so we went to gr together to buy something .. Den asmida asked us to wait her ... So we did .. Not knowing ashar was there .. I was afraid to face him .. Den i brave myself and go to him .. I asked him and he laugh .. I dont know why but he laugh .. So i smile .. Den we are fine !! I was relived .. As i dont know why i cant bring myself to let him go !! HAAAAAAAH !!!!! Thaks baby !!

And

TODAY

I NEVER GO ANYWHERE ... Boriing ryte >?? But never mind .. I will start werking on monday also ... hah .... Will be busy soon ...

Well , I'll stop rite here ... Will update mah blog soon yeah ..

BYE !

To those MF out there !

2009-09-07T20:31:00.002+08:00

TELL YOU ALL WAT ,

I dun give a damn or care less about wat you wanna say about me ..

Its MY LIFE anyway ..

Why you all so kaypoh ?? like to Talk about ppL , Mulut mcm PA .. Tao ??
Hahaha ... kao pk aku perduli kerh ?? EH , TAQ LUHH ... Please luhh ..

Say luhh say ... I care less about all your Fcuking Mouth .. =D

THANKYOU

2009-09-07T02:54:00.002+08:00

TO: @$!#%

Thanks eyk ... Aku baru mintak maaf kat kao tadi ... Den now kao nyer turn pulak ... BAGUS BAGUS ! Paper luhh .. Kao dgn senang ehk ckp mcm tuh ..! Watever luhh ...

Aku seriously dah malas nk ckp pasal nih sumerh lagy ...

ERRRGH !

Who's here ?

2009-09-07T02:21:00.002+08:00

YOU're such an/a;
- IDIOT !
- PAIN IN MY ASS !
- IRRITATING TO THE MAX !

YOU;
- TINK YOU ARE ALWAYS RIGHT !
- ALWAYS BLAME OTHERS !
- MAKE OTHER PPL HATE YOU !

SO, Blame it on yourself .. Not others .. Tink twice before you do IDIOT !!
So stupid of you !! U know that ???

Advise

2009-09-04T01:38:00.004+08:00

SHERIL LEANA

Sheril , Yeah aku bingit ngn kao that day, 2nd September 2009 .. SO those words aku taq meant it .. Aku bingit sebab kao kater aku treat ko mcm anjing ? Padahal ko yg treat aku mcm anjing .. Paper luhh eyk .. Aku tatawu sejak biler aku treat ko mcm anjing .. Sekarang this matter antare aku ngn kao .. Taq der kene mengena ngn yg lain .. Kao tao saper ... Aku tatawu uhk whether org lain aderh ckp kat kao kerh taq .. But kdg2 behaviour kao seriously memalukn .. Aku bukan nk keji kao ke aperh uhk .. Tapi kao tgk blog kao .. Org dah kasi kao comment ...

Aku rase its time untuk kao ubah sikap dan perangai kao .. Jadi org yg dewase ... Maybe a little mature is enuf .. Aku taq nk org ckp2 psl kao .. Tapi end up ? Dah ader pon .. Kalo ko minat joget pon , jgn joget in public uhk .. Some ppl dont like it .. Try to maintain ur "dancing Tingy" luhh ... Aku bukan aperh uhk ... Tapi serious talking uhk .. Aku kdg2 pon malu tgk kao mcm gitu ...

Aku minta maaf luhh eyk kalo aku aderh offence kao .. But u need to tink uhk sheril .. Kao perintah aku, aku taq ckp paper. kao msg ngn kwn3 aku, aku taq ckp paper . sedang kn aku paling pantang tgk pompan contact ngn kwn2 lelaki tu sendiri ... Aku tau, aku and is pon aku contact ngn ashar .. But nk buat aper ? Aku syg ashar , and aku contact ashar AJERH . Ni kao smpai 3 org siol ? Org dah bbl psl Kao kt skola kao tao .. Tapi aku ttp cover2 kn kao .. PK betol2 eh sheril .. Aku taqnk ckp paper lagy ...

Its your LIFE aniway ...

FORGET Everytink tat hapen !

2009-09-02T03:21:00.003+08:00

Hmm ... The Last blog update was yesterday... And i did say that i give 2 days ... Tapi end up ??
Haist .... Den after the fight and etc ... i told ashar to just mit her .. Tapi skrg aper jadi ?
Due2 hp mati ... Ashar batt flat ... wat about alvina ? taqkn batt flat ? haist !

I told him to reach home before 3.30 .. and now wat time already ? he still havent msg or kol me !!! Haist ... Den i tink again ...
Are we match ?
will we last long ?
Is he the one for me ?

Den i guess its an N and O, NO ... It just a NO ... He shld fine another gerl .. Like wat Alvina said .. Ashar , tink twice ... And i have make the answer for you ashar . We are done .. i know kiter baru jerh ... But i guess we really cant ... U did not follow your promise .. Wat else shld i say ? I cant simply forget wat happen today .. I'm sundal wat ... Yalah , Alvina much more prettier than me .. Go back to her luh .. Comfirm skrg korang tgh ber romen2 kat ave 4 , tower sanerh kn ... Watever luhh ...

I dont mind luhh ashar ... itz ur life ur choice ..
Wansha , Thanx eyk ! kao taq angkat kol aku and kao taq kol aku pon . kalo kao taqnk tolong , ckp jer luhh ....

BYE !

Secret ?

2009-09-01T18:38:00.003+08:00

I dont know wat i should type out here ... Too many things that i wanna tok about .. but its like jumble up ! Haist !

1st - My birthday
2nd - About me and ashar
3rd - About ashar and this gerl

Ist - Today is my birthday .. And i should be happy ... But nih taq .. Rase lain mcm .. Rase mcm ader sesuatu yg taq kene .. Tapi aperh ? Haist ! I dont know if there's sumtink missing or not ... ntah luhh ...

2nd - Aku and ashar ?? Haist .. Kiter dah mataer .. Tapi rase mcm aderh sesuatu yg dier simpn dan sembunyi kn dari aku ... taq perh ... aku taq akn megaku kalah .. aku akn cari info tuh .. Be it true or not ... HAIST !

3rd - ASHAR saper ALVINA ? Asl namer dier pelik ? Asl ni pompan slalu cari ashar ? Ashar n dier msg2 .. Aper ni !!! Aku taqtau saperh dier ! Tapi Aku nk dpt tau satu hari nnt ! Alvina ?? Hmmm .. Tgk luhh nnt aper akan jadi ... FYI ! aku BENCI NI POMPAN ! ALVINA SIALAN !

Ashar , u better tell me the truth before i find out myself .. U know my behaviour .. And u know wat will happen if u lie to me .. U dont wan to become like is dont u ?? So buka mulut kao and start TALKING before anitink happen . !

I'll give you 2 days to tink or u see wat will happen !

Perpisahan ?

2009-08-30T19:55:00.003+08:00

I have been thinking .... And i have been searching .... Yeas i pick ashar den Is ... But then we fall ouT ... So , it the end of our story ...

My frends say that at least i got to spend time with him even though its onlt for a while .. Yeah .. thats true ... At least i got to spend time with u ashar .. Even though it takes us only for a while .. I would like to apologise if i have made u mad or wat so ever .. Its ouhk if u wont forgive me ...

Whose fault is it right now , idc and idk ... I just wana apologise ... And If u're reading this , i hope u would forgive me ... I hope u''ll find ure happiness ... Take good care of ure health and go for your regular check-up ... Just hoping that u'll get well soon ..

So takecare ....

BYE !

WTH

2009-08-30T18:17:00.002+08:00

The moment i online , he will be offline . when i'm offline he will be online ... Guess that he really meant it huh ?? Ouhk den , fine ... I will not disturb him animire lorh ...
Best solution for ??
Hmm , Go Tasik and just sit there ... Hope can forget him though .. Haist ...

People say forget the past and move on ..
Buang yg keruh ambil yg jernih ...
Yeah i was about to do that ... But i cant ! haist !

Seems hard ferr me to forget!

But to him ??
Haist !
Dah luh ... I have nutink else to say but just i feel so fcuking down and i dk wat else shld i do ..
Im starting to miss him ....

GuiLty

2009-08-30T04:50:00.004+08:00

Haist ... I know tadi i just update .. But then can't stop tinking why ....
hmmmmm ...

Tink that this would end just like that ??
Haist .... Truth is , i dont hate him ... Its just that ....... Idk luhh ...
Been crazy these past few days ... Sikit2 mrh ... Sikit2 mengamok ... Padahal org tuh taq buat sLh ...

lagy2 kat sheril ... Soo soorry sheril ... Aku taq tau uhk asl aku bad mood gilerh these past few days .. Mcm Ntah Luhh ... Mungkin aku dgn dier dah taqder paper .. In the first place kiter dah mmg taqder paper .. Tapi dah mcm mater ... Ntah luh ..

Selame ni pon aku tgk ashik ak =u jerh yg cari dier .. Jarang nk tgk dier yg cari aku ... Haist ... Aku dah taqnk pk2 lagy .. Should this be the last day aku n ashar contact ... Aku pon dah taq boleh buat aperh 2 lagy .... Aku tau , lepas nie aku kekurangan kwn ....

Aku taq pasal , sebab kwn bukan susah nk cari ... Tapi kwn sejati atao kwn mesra (ttm) mmg susah .. Be it take me for so loong .. I can still wait for the time untuk aku bercinta lagy ..

So soorry Ashar !

FCUK

2009-08-30T01:32:00.002+08:00

CB uhk!!
Aku betol2 meyesal uhk knl2 ngntuh JANTAN!
Sialan juboh !! Kao pk aku heran sngat perh ngn kao !!
Sorry uhk !!!! Aku dah taq peduli lagy luhh !!
Aku taq kenang budi perh !!! YERH !!!!!
Aku mmg taq kenang budi !!!
Aku mmg !!!! EY JANTAN !! Keep this in mind uhk !!!
Aku BENCI KAO SEUMUR HIDUP AKU !!!!!
Kao INGAT TU !!

Aku taq Perlu kn kao lagy luhh !!!!
kao pergy luh !!!!!!!!!!!!

BENCI
BENCI
BENCI
BENCI
BENCI!!!!

So SORRY !

2009-08-28T03:55:00.002+08:00

Aku tau tadi aku baru jerh update..
Well ,ntah luhh .... aku tatwu nk buat mcm manrh lagy ...
aku mintak maaf kat ashar , wansha and hasif kalo aku dah bnyk buat korang susah kerh aper uhk... aku tao aku nie ader iritating dier ..
Paper maaf kn aku eh .. hmmmmmmmmmm ....

Aku seriously dah taq larat nk Pk2 psL nie sumerh .... Sakit kepale otak aku ni ...
kdg2 malam aku taq boleh tido .. Terfikir , knper aku ngn is break ? Padahal mula2 kiter mesra... mcm maner boleh aderh garam ...

And macam manerh aku boleh dgn ashar ?
Sedang kn aku pernah ckp dengan diri aku sendiri .. Jgn rosak kn frenship org ??
HAIST !

IS i'm sooryy if u're hurt because of me ...
Ashar , I dont know wat Else i should say ... I can see that over a small little tingy , u will just get angry .. Lepas tuu nk buat baik ... Mcm taq logic tao tak ?? Yeluhh .. mmg luhh kiter kene mintak maaf .. Tapi dah braperh banyak kali dah ???

Smlm jerh dah mengamok padahal org dah ckp kiter gurau ajerh ...
so like WTF kn ???
HAIST !!

Kao tao tak yg korang boleh buat aku jadi gilerh !
due2 nk get back to each other ... aku ni aperh ?
Tp is, I dont know if ure att or not .. Tapi yg jelas kao dah aderh pompan .. tapi kenaperh kao masih lagy nk contact dgn aku ?
Please , aku mudah terpengaruh dgn katerh2 kao ... SO PLEASE , Jgn nk mcm2 !!!
Hmmmmmmmmmmm .......

AKU SORTSORTSORTSORT!!!!!!

Arrh !

2009-08-28T03:02:00.003+08:00

Bingit!
Bingit!!
Bingit!!!
Bingit!!!!
Bingit!!!!!

Benci!!!!!
Benci!!!!
Benci!!!
Benci!!
Benci!

Sort!
Sort!!
Sort!!!
Sort!!!!
Sort!!!!

Hatred!!!!!
Hatred!!!!
Hatred!!!
Hatred!!
Hatred!

Tak Gunerh !!!
Bingit Luhh Aku !!!
Kalo aku tauw, Takkan aku kol dierh tadi !
Errrgh !
Menyampah SAk !!!!

Kawan dier pulak mcm sial ....
Taqder Adat Perh tu budak SiaLan !!!
FCUKER !!! NAbÉh CB !!!!

Perangai dier pulak mcm pompan .... taq boleh kene sikit perh ???
Kalo taqley , gi arh pakai skirt !!!

CBCBCBCBCBCBCBCBCBCBCBCBCBCB!!!!!

Puki !! Geram perh Aku !!!
ni dah kali ke 5 sak aku nangis untuk dier !!!
Sikit perh BDH AKU !!!!
Taq psl2 nk nangis !!!
Buat aperh sak !! buknyer worth it !

ERRRRRGGHH !!!!!!!!

Boooored

2009-08-25T21:14:00.004+08:00

ouhk ...

Im sooo fcuk bored ...

Nutink to do seyk ...

Ashar ajak lepak ... But i'm just to tired to go out ...

So mls Tau .....

Den tadi lmbt untuk bukerh lagy ...

Haha ..

Best eyk tadi terrido kat dlm bus !

Smpai bus to dah park dah ....

(malu tao taq)

Den theres this one malay guy ...

Dierh pon Tertido ...

Mcm janji jerh ..

hahah ..... (ashar jgn mrh uhk . )

heeee~~~~

Ouhk ...

Lepas tuu mcm budak bdh jln ...

Bus driver sumerh tgk ...

HaisT !

Lepas tuu kiter dah tatawu nk ckp aperh lagy ...

Heh ....

BYE!

Mistake

2009-08-24T20:18:00.003+08:00

Hey , dah start alek dah aku peh confuse sini confuse sanerh ....
hmmmm ...
Smlm aku gaduh lagy dgn Ashar .
Tapi kli ni aku ckp yg aku taqnk tgk mukerh dier ..
rase serba salah TAUW ~~~
Haist ! Tadi aku kol umah dierh .. Ntah knperh ....
Susah benar nk luper kn sebernanyer !!!
Hmmmmmmmmmmmm ...
Aku nie sebernanyer malas nk aderh mataer ..
Tapi aderh jugak org nk kat aku nih ..
Asl uhk ??? Perangai aku da lah buruk ...
Haiyoh ...
Bnyk pening dah !
AsharAsharAshar !
Aku taq habis2 pk psl dierh ..!
Ntah luhh...
Aku nyerh org nih susah nk buat setia tauw taq ...
Itu sebab aku taqnk mataer ngn Ashar .
Sebab aku taqnk dier sakit hati luhh ....
Nnt dah sakit hati , musuh pulak kiterh mcm aku ngn si is tuuh !
Duuhhh !!!
Is pulak ckp kat aku taq gunerh kalo aku nk mintak maaf ...
Dah bagus tuh aku minta maaf ..!~Debik KANG !!!!
Enleh , lagi pon aku taq buat slh dgn dierh perh ...
Aku nk mintak maaf buat aperh kn !!!!
Bdh benar luhh aku nih !
Hmmmmmm ...
Taqper luhhh ...
dag nasib aku kene mcm ginie ...
Nk buat aper ...
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm .....

BYE !

Another Drama

2009-08-23T13:54:00.004+08:00

Ouhk ,
Yesterday i was msging w Cdiqq regarding Ashar .
Den i said that i dun know whether i shld acept him or not as i dun want to see another drama of love life. I had enuf drama in my life .
Den i say no boyfriend , can have the freedom ...
And so on ...

A few minutes later, Ashar msg using cdiqq hp ..
"if thatz the freedom u wan den ....."
The last part i forget ...
But it kinda hurtz !
Anyway its find w me .... doesnt meant satu pergi boleh mati perh ....
Live still goes on what !!!
hmmmmmm ......

Bye !

Puassa Luhh !!!

2009-08-23T02:35:00.003+08:00

Hey !!
Dah puasa dah ....
hmmm ..... Bulan nie , mesti buat baik ..
haha ... Ferst day of Puasa aku tido one whole day ! Taq karat seyk nk bngun ..
Mcm pnt gitu ... Den arnd plus . go Gr ..
Kasi cdoqq abit pf Nylon string and head to Gr and fetch asmida ..
Den Cdiqq masok kejerh ..
hmmm ...
Now adays , i feel lonely.... Hati kosong gitu ntah knper ...
padahal Ashar always aderh to talk to me ...
But it seems like theres sumtink missing ... ya lah ..
Sblum puasa dah make a wish to buke w ths sum1 ...
But to bad , dah taqder hubugan !!!
Hmmmmm ...
Ntah luhh yerh ....
Sayerh pon tatawu .....
=)
Well, must make myself happy Yaw !!!!
if dier happy , i happy luhh !!
thatz how it works ....
And satu hari nie , kiter msg dgn MR. cigar ...
Funny huh ...
Tapi kiut uhk .... we bbl awak,kiter2 ...
hahahahhaha ....
Awak next time kiter beli ... Discount uhk !!!!
hahahaha
skrg pon sudah pukul 2.47 pagi ...
kiter nk gi tido ....
Slamat Mlm Yerh !!!

BYE !

Bazaarh

2009-08-21T03:38:00.003+08:00

On 20 August 2008,
We had bazaarh in the school .
my group jual Beaded Bracelet and Necklace ..
Kiter pk Taqder org , Skali !!!!
Fuhh .....
Pnat beb tgn aku and sheril ..
dah tuu kiter jerh yg buat ....
Sakit dok ...
Steven Leader kiter ... Hah , dier tukang tarik customer ...
SO far we did well ...
Yeah ...
So happy yaw...
Ntah kiter buat profit ker loss Seyk ...
But hopefully Profit luhh ...
Heees ....
The pictures . Will post on the next time i post .. =DD
Well, I dont know wat to say liao ....
Ouh yah , u know wat ...?
On 19 August Aku kene saman !!!!
Gerek Seyk tuuu !!!!
Hmmmph !

Ez-Link

2009-08-18T23:28:00.004+08:00

Woukay...
Now , i'm so fcuking bingit !!!!
my my ezlink ntah ker manerh ...
i have search every sgl corner... Taq aderh .....
Den i msg Ashar ... Nk tanyer whether my ezlink w him or not ..
den, he help me search and etc ...
At last dier dah jumperh .....
RELIEVE SEYK !!!!
HAHA !!!!
Thank you Baby ...!
Muahahahahaha ....

Geylang Lights-up!

2009-08-16T22:05:00.003+08:00

Ouhk , on 15 aug 2009, when geylang to watch the show.
And sheril joget ...
haha .... so cute !!!
den after that g makan kat Mr Teh Tarik ...
den go back ...
Ashar send ... Kiter gaduh ....
and today dier taq contact ..
HAIST !!!!!!!!!!!
bingung arggh ...
Raj ckp he tink is still loves me ... ntah luhh ..
duh luh ..
malas nk pk2 lagy ...
now nk g gr amek adek ....
See you soon ..

National day

2009-08-11T00:32:00.003+08:00

Well , on National Day , how do i celebrate ???
Well , i celebrate with my macdonald's crew and manager at Fajar mac ....
We are all working till out of breath as the MDS order are so like fcuk much ...
WAH !! Bo Tahan uhk !!!
I really cannot take it uhk !
mcm nk mampos seyk kejerh ....
Dah luhh taq dpt tgk bunga api ...
tapi taq mengape ...
Lain hari aderh ..
haha ...

And hati ni pulak ....
My bad luck day !!!
hmmm .........
Accident basikal ...... Gigi ku kena kisar dgn itu simen .....
Kurang masin btol ....
dah gigi aku rade simen tg sungguh tidak menyelerakn ...
hmmmm ....
itu luhh , ketawer kn org sngt ...
ini luhh dolat namernyer ...
haha ...
sakit tauw~!!!!
Best nyer besok pergi sekolah pakai p.e and shorts ...
Thank to MS TAN ...
haha ...

Well , now i wanna sleep ....
Nnt skola ...
Heh ... Will update soon yaw !! =)

Pancing

2009-08-08T20:56:00.005+08:00

Sorry for not updating !

Yesterday , go pancing lagy with ashar, bart and wansha all ..

We go pancing at Changi pulak ...

Smlm sikit peh pening .... mcm nk demam seyk ...

Den wansha pon nk muntah ...

haha ...

Sumerh sakit ...

Den bilerh dah smpai kt changi , we go eat ferst ..

We eat nasi lemak ...

den wati arrive with air starbucks ..

After mkn , kiter pon pergi beli brg2 Pancing and go to the beach there ...

After set up tent ...

Fir and the rest set the fishing rod to go fishing .. while i , sitting there tgk mcm manerh nk ikat ....

At last tertdo ...

Sakit kepale nyer psl ...

Den bngun jerh da pagy ...

Semuer tgh tido ... mcm soyal ..

haha ...

aftr mandi and tunggu kn habis packed sumerh , kiter rushing as i need to go back ...

And the reason is that i need to do the topup tink ... hah ...

Nasib asmida aderh ...

Haha ..

Kae, den i reach home ajerh.. Drop dead ...

org msg sumerh taq dgr smpai kul 6 plus like that ....

huh ..

So far i have no pics .. sebab taq amek .. hmmmm .... =)

K , till here den ..

Will update soon ..

See yah .. =)

Apologies to sheril sebab taq lepak . And ashar for taking care of em and the siku2 tink . heh

Boorrinngg

2009-08-05T12:08:00.002+08:00

Heylo !! Sorry taq update !

Heh ... Smlm Lepak wif bart ...
Plan to go cck n buy cig... Dier naik basikal, Den tompang me ...
skali , bilerh kite nk belok den tayar bocor .... Bunyi kuat giler babi sak !!!
Malu sak sumerh tgk ...

Den kiter naik bus gi cck luhh ... Aper uhk bart .... Basikal Budget ... heheh ...
PAstu , IS keep on calling2 ... irritating seyk ... buat org bingit jerh tao ....
Duhhhh ....
Lepas tuu , bart n me cari basikal .. heh ... phm2 je luhh ....

After that mit ashar at gr ... wen bck and slip ....
Heh ....
nari pulak mendak ..... aduh ...
Cikgu Hajijah ni pulak irritating !!!
heh ...

well , thatz all i have to say ... =)

Tiring day ..

2009-08-03T00:12:00.002+08:00

Hey ....

Today i go werk at mac .... Pnt seyk ....
Biase luhh .. Dah lamerh taq keje ...
FUHH ... Den Ashar , yahyah nk amek ... at last cari peh cari kol peh kol ....
Dpt tao dier kat wdlnd .... dengs luhh ashar nie ...
Heh Ashar, * jgn amek hati yeh ... i tak mrh u pon*
Lain kali dah tau u takkn amek i , msg luhh ... nie tak ...
buat org cari2 dier mcm budak bodoh ...
hmmm ....
Haist .....
Now i dont know wat to write already ...
And its like already 1.05 am in the morning ...
Nari skola .... Taq boleh lmbt ....
Mcm siak ....
Hmm ....
well , Gooodnight bebeh ....
Mimipi yg terindah yerh ashar !

2009-08-01T16:25:00.002+08:00

So sorry for not updating ... Been busy ...

Well , these pass few days , alot of tink berlaku ....
Sungguh aku keliru man ..
taqtau nk wat aper lagy ...
padahal , i was getting to forget abt the past ...
but he turn up again yesterday saying that wat if we havent break up '??
haist !
iF I WERE TO ACCEPT IS, WAT ABOUT ASHAR ??
pening nyer !!!!
kalo luhh aku nie boleh buat pilihan , dah lamer aku ckp saper aku nk ....
Nie , aku delay2 ...
lari kn diri dari masalah ....
aku buat dek jerh ....
aku pk buat mcm gitu , salah satu comfrm buat bodoh ...
and thought that is has back out ....
but i was wrung ...
he came back telling me that he love me and etc !!!
Idk wat else i shld do ..
im so f**king confused ~!

hope i could make my decision faster man !

Pancing

2009-07-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

Today went fishing with Ashar , wansha , Hasif ,
Siddiq , Asmida and dika (wansha gerl) ....
Was fun .. Mcm hiking seyk mulerh2 ... Kiterh Masok semak just to get to the destination ..
That is Kampong Wak San (wak Hassan) ..
I'm soooo not used to those semak2 Tinky !!
Sikit perh Seram tmpat time mlm..
FUH!! HAH !
Den i read ashar msg ...
Aderh luhh this msg he sent to that gerl ...
"Hi Putri" !
Like wtf !
So i asked wansha who isit?
He said maybe putri mac ...
Den siddiq said sedare ashar ....
kalo sedare tkkn luhh ckp manerh dpt num ?
Sunnguh Taq logic !!!!
Taq perh luhh .... Kalo ashar nk flirt pon , wat can i do ?
Hmmmmmm ...
Paper luhh ....
Well , gtg liao ...
Sooo the ngntok ...
Anitink just text me ashar ....
Tatz only if u wan to ...
=

Yesterday

2009-07-25T11:10:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey ...

Another bad news cuming ....

hmmm ....

Yesterday , lepak with is ferr a while ..

Kiter due lepak dah mcm mataer .... tapi taq ...

hmmm ...

msg ashar , dier taq reply ....

Tot of ajak dier lepak ...

End up dier msg nk gi malaysia ..

hmmm ..

I said to IS yg he cnnt have two in one ...

Pick one thats is best ... Gerls dont like to share guys u know !
hah ..... He terus diam .. Taq bnyk bbl ...

Tgh fikir luhh tuu ...

After dorang abez keje , kiter sumerh lepak kejupp ...

It felt like dulu2 ...

Like wen i and is were still together ...

Den i went bck home ..

Afew minutes after i reach home , Is kol ...

Saying tat he wanna take me bck ...

ANd tat if i love him , don go pancing with them today ...

Wat the hell shld i do ?

Wat abt ashar ? Wat abt the memories that happen between me and ashar ?

Haiyoh ....

I really dont know wat to do ...

Errrh ....

It happen so suddenly ....

If i were to take is den ashar , how would ashar feel ?

If i were to take ashar , how will Is feel ?

Ouhk ..!
I'm soooo blank .!

To tink that i make to guys fall ferr me ...

Like wat herwan said ...

I'm no princess that wan guys to fight ferr ...

hmmmmm .....................................

Give me your opinion man !

kaey ....

i wanna mandi ... nk go out !

Will update you soon ...

Takecares!

Frustrated

2009-07-24T17:02:00.000+08:00

Today , i was so bingit with Ashar ...
WTF ! He expect me to wait ferr hym like two hours ...
Bukan ferst time seyk mcm ginie ...
Kalo lelaki tunggu pompan takper jugak ...
Ni terbalik ... Alamak !
Bingit2 ! Tunggu dier kat tasek with sheriL ...
Dah mcm tunggul ....
Haist !
Dier smpai , mintak maaf pon taq ..
Da tuh taq bbl pulak !!
Ieeeee !!!
Geram Seyk ...
Ade luhh dier bbl ... Tapi i taq dgr ...
Den sheril yg jwb ... So , i assume that he's toking to sheril lorh ...
So , i just keep quiet ... Dah boring sngt tunggu era kat bridge tasek ...
Patah balik , sher nk balek ... Baron antar ...
Den , a few minutes ltr ...
Ashar nk g kedai ...
Den i told him tat ltr me and era will be going to BP ...
At last dier balik !!!
Errrh !!! Kiterh gado ...
Haist !!!
so like WTF !
Mcm nk Hakdish ajerh mukerh dier ...
Tapi taq boleh .... I must change ....
cnnt be so violance ...!
Haha ... After i punch is face ....
Mcm taq baik seyk!
hmm ...
Duuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!

blahblahblah!
Will update soon ..
wanna sleep !
hehheh ...

Frustrated

2009-07-24T02:07:00.000+08:00

Wat the ...

2009-07-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

Sorry ferr not updating..

I dont know wat went wrong ..
But he's mad at me .
haist ...
I dont know wat to do ..
Is wanna mit me .
I tell ashar .. Bey ashar katerh nk jmperh , jumperh luhh ...
so , i mit lorh ...
Den ashar jealous ...
like wat the F... ..
Dier kasi jumperh , tapi dier mrh ...
Haist ! At first i dont know that he's jealous or mad ...
Tgh nk kol Sheril , tibe2 ashar msg "eh nadiah! Thanx!"
Like wat the f....
I was blank at that moment .. Wondering why ..
Den i kol him ... He said that he's busy and hung up !
A few minutes later Sheril msg telling me that ashar bingit wen he get to know that i meet is ..
Haist ! Kalo mrh pon , jgn ckp gitu boleh taq ashar ?
I dont like .. Haist !
Ieeeeee !!!!! GERAMMM NYERH !!!!Haist !
Nie kalo dah mataer tatawu luhh aperh yg akn jadi ...
Errrh !!!
Panas nyer hati nie !!!!!!!!
Hmmmm ... Watever luhh ...
after i send him one long msg , he apologies ...
Unfortunately , i cant bring myself to forgive him ...
dont know why !!!
i feel like ashar actually dun love me ..
Some times i dun feel his love at all ... WHy ???
Haiyoh!!
Feel so confused !

Does ashar really love me ?
Is he the one ferr me ?
Will he treat me like how is treat me ?
Will he make used of me ?
Will he be able to love me like how i want it to be ?
Will he be able to tolerate my behaviour ?
If no , den his not the one ferr me ...

Haist!

Soo Sorry Ashar !

Will update soon ....

Who will i Pick ?

2009-07-20T02:42:00.000+08:00

Ouhk ,

Today was sooo tired !

Sikit peh busy !! Duuuhhh !
Sakit pe badan !!
hmm ...

Den after werk , met asmida , siddiq and ashar ...

After ashar pergy ...

Siddiq and asmida told me another story abt is which i find it difficult to accept ...

Haist !
Is told siddiq that he is willing to break with me in order to get Ainie commonwealth as she is much more prettier then me ...

Den asmida told me that Is is waiting ferr me to asked ferr a break up ...

It was only a few days that Is told me yg dier taq nk break with me .

How could he !!!!
ARRRGH !!!
Learn from your mistake NADIAH !!!!
Haist !!

Ouhk !! So wat if That "gerl" is much more prettier then me ?

I dont care ... God give me this face , so ?

Nothing wrong wat ...

Hah ...

From dere i start to tink again ...

Who is the one for me ?

Iskandar or Ashar ?

Haiyah !!!!

All this thing are making me go crazy sia !!!

Let just leave it to fate sudah !!

ape nk jadi , jadi luhh .!

But then come to tink of it , I miss Ashar even if i just meet him a few hours back ...

Hmmmm ....

Kalo is ? Taq pernah rase mcm ginie ..

Hah ...

Ntah luhh eyk ....

Well , lets just see wat will happen in days to come ...

Now , i wanna go and sleep !

ZzZzZzZz ...

Good night !
will update soon !

Kind Confused!

2009-07-19T11:48:00.000+08:00

Sorry didnt update .

On 17 July 2009,

Met is at 431 playground arnd 7.20 p.m

Den went to b.p park .

At first , both of us didnt say anitink until ,

I asked him y he did tat to me ?

He said he didnt know .

Out of sudden , tears rolled down my cheek .

Cant imagine how painful it was to see him

go away with some other gerls .

Haish !
Honestly , I have been searching to know hu is in my heart .

Ashar or Iskandar ?

And On 17 July 2009 then i found the answer .

Its Muhammad Iskandar Bin Ismail .

But den wat abt ashar ?

I admire and adore him .

Like i said before , i love him before i met is .

But idk y m i acting like this .

Ashar i'm so sorry .
How i wish i never broke up with is .

Ever since we broke up ,

i feel tat theres sumtink missing in my life .

Even though ashar was there to keep me company .

Haish !
I totally miss the time i spend with is .

Arnd 3 plus am ,

When down ferr awhile .

met is, iqbal and herwan .

Honestly i feel like hating herwan !

But i cant .

he's was once my fren .

He advice me once .

He assked me to choose between is or ashar .

but wen i choose already , he make is do stupid tink

like contacting other gerl !

Yeah he shout at me .

cant blive it .

But its ok . I accept that .

Hah ..........

Den yesterday , 18 July 2009,

When escort with my macdonald frens ..

Fizah and syam ..

They ride the same bike while i ride syam fren's.

So wtf !
i dont know them at all ..

HAHA!!

Weird huh .. taq knl tapi he tompang me..

hah ....

lepas tuu , kereta tuu bwk sikit peh laju !!!
ADUH !!!

Seram siot ! Mcm nk terkeluar jantung aku ...

haha ....

My pantat sakit sak ...

SEBAL tau !!
Manerh tak, dari np to sengkang ...

Den , sengkang tu jurong ..

den jurong to sengkang ...

Tpi, nasib baik taq return to sengkang balek ...

Pening siot .

haha ...

so , i went bck to bp ..

Tapi taq balik .. Jumper my adeqz , Mida and nur kejupp ..

Out of no where , sidiq timbul ..

haha ...

So , kiter lepak kejupp ....

Den , Wen home ...

Smpai jerh rumah ...

Straight jack gone to dream land ....

haha ..

well , nari keje kat banquet ...

from 2 - 10 pm ..

HAAAAA .... Haiyoh ...

well , til here den ...

will update sooon .... =)

Memories is still there!

2009-07-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

Haish !

Yesterday went to lepak with Ashar , sidiq and asmida ...

Tapi bilerh smpai , Is aderh ...

Haish ..!

Terkenang masa lalu seyk !!!
Den akid come ...

So, i used his phone and msg Is ,

tanyer dier "asl kao buat aku mcm ginie ? nie aku nadiah ."

He nnvr reply ... Dier buat bodoh ajerh !

Haish !!!
So fucking sad !!!
After we lepak , Kiter pergy Gr to fetch my adeq tiri ..

Duduk2 kat tannge ....

Still teringat mase lalu !
Soooooo many place i go is with IS !!!

ARRRGH !!!

I was bored , cant look back to the past ..

so i sit at playground there ... bukak lagu kat hp hp ..

N guess wat !!?

Bukak jerh , lagu Niat hati taknak Berpisah !!!
Sort seyk ...!
Mcm tau2 jerh ni hp yg i actually dont want to break w is ...

Toooo heart broken !

Haish !

I totally miss Is ...

BUT i cant keep on going like this ...

Kalo taq kene mrh nnt dgn si sidiq ...

haha ... =)

Den todae , i end skule late ...

After skule go tamp 1 with sher , tammy and Xiao wen ...

Eat at mac den go home ...

Haha ...

Den reach Bp , mit akid and the rest ..

Ashar , hmm ....

Ntah luhh ...

I asked ferr his phone psl nk maen game ...

but wen he pass the phone , dier ckp "yg msg sharidah(if im not wrong) tuu wansha punyer" ..

So , i was curious ..

so i check ...

Den get to know tat its not wansha ...

but Ashar ...

Haish ...

Guys ... All are the same ..

hah !!!!

soooo the geram !!!

Hmmmm ...

I trust guys no more !!!!
Tatz IT !!!!
Haish !

Update u agian ...

Byeee ...

Starting A new Life

2009-07-15T14:18:00.000+08:00

Ouhk ,

Since u have forgotten abt mie , itz tyme i ferget abt u too ...

Since u have move on with your life , itz tyme i move on too ...

Since u have already had another gerl by ur side , itz time i'll be single ...

I wont live mylife crying for u and missing u ...

I wont live mylife regretting that i have slap ur face and even punch it till my hand are all aching !

Idk y i still love u even though u had make a fool out of mie ...

YES , i do love ashar , but wen we are not together animore , it seems that i cant even forget abt u ..

I dont even know why ...

HAIST !

Idk y u did that ...

Idk y u must make used of me ..

idk y u must lie to me ..

But i know that u busted me upside down .!

Haist !

Thank You fer everytink Muhammad Iskandar Bin Ismail !

Haist ...

By missing u wnt do anitink also ..

Well , just wish u all the best with that gerl ..

Ouh Yah !

Yesterday , saw Dayah Cck at MRT .. We Board the same train and same cabin too ..

Well , at ferst ...

I hate her ... yeah i do ...

but then , teringat kater2 ahar and akid ...

So , i talk to her ....

Hmm, ..

turn out well ...

Thanx dayah ...

fer sumtink luhh ...

hehe ...

Den mlm lepak w bdk fjr , they comfort me ..

YEAH ,

Thx to Nana , Farid and Khai.

Tapi khai busted sikit uhk ...

ader kerh dier kater , mcm nk buat aku lost memory ...

so , tkkn teringat kn dier ...

hmm ...

tapi ouhk jugak perh ...

haha..

Sorry to Sheril , taq gi skola nari ...

haha ...

Well , aku sakit mah ...

hurhur ...

Ouhk , gtg ...

Out of tinks to say already ...

BYEEE ..

Itz Over Between US !

2009-07-14T12:08:00.000+08:00

HAIST !
I'm so fucking sad ! Why must we end up this way ?
I miss you muhammad Iskandar Bin Ismail !
HAIST !
U treat me like a fool !
To tink that i could trust you again ! but this is wat i get !
U F***er ! JANTAN SIAL !
I cant believe that you did this kind of tink to me !
Why must you make my life so miserable~!
I hate you but i'm now missing you !
Cried for you all night !
But all you do was having fun out there without me knowing it !
Cant blive i have such a guy to be part of mylife !
Feel soo Hurt !
I dont knowwat else shld i do at that point of time , but i asked for a break up .
And now ? I'm missing him badly ! HAIST !
Thx to Sheril and dayah ( sheril fren )
Make me laugh non stop .
HMMM !
So , we broke up on 12 july 2009 at 11.50 pm ..
HAIST !!!
To Sidiq , ashar and akid , Loves you guys ...
cume korang ajerh yg boleh phm naluri aku ...
Aku pk herwan adalah org yg baik dan boleh dipercayai ...
TAPI !
aku silap !
HAIST !
Aper luhh nasib aku nie kn !

Its like two days since we break up .

And yesterday i get to know that you have deleted eveery sgl pics of me and you !

Why so fast ?

Haist !
WHy IS WHy ?

='((

Missing Hym !

2009-07-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating !

Hmm ...

I have been missing hym !

Ever since that day , i did not contact hym , ashar because of my guy , iskandar ..

I miss ashar ... Idk why ...

Hmm ...

Ashar , i'm sorry !

I hope u understand my situation ...

Well, on 4 july , i and is almost break up ...

Because , he cannot tahan with my perangai ! Hmm ...

Sorry !

Is , my family likes him ...

But i like ashar ...

How ?

Hmm ...

Well , i'm sooo confused !

When will i make my decision .?

Only god knows !
Hmm ...

Just give me tyme ..!

Well , i hope it'll all turn up well ...

Hope so .!

So , Takecares !

I wanna watch my show , Jihan !!
woohooo !

such a good story !

hmm ..!

Toodles ! =)

Im confused

2009-07-03T00:10:00.000+08:00

Hey alL,

I'm now confused ... Idk hu to choose ..

Which one is best ferr me ? Which one can make me happy ?

Which one will be able to share my unhappiness ?

Which one will be able to Lend me their shoulder wen i'm sad n frustrated ?

Who'll love me wholeheartedly and be able to tolerate with my behaviour ?

Haist !

I'm soo F***ing confused ..

I love Both of them ..

BUT ......

The first guy

He hurtz me .. I cant take it ...

The pain wen he Told "that gerl" that we broke off is still there ...

The tears that roll down my cheek ferr him is like too much !

I cried ferr him each night ...

No more tears for him ..

Itz time i have to comfort myself to cheer up ..

HAIST !!

The second guy
And theres this one more guy , "HIS" bestfren ..

He likes me ...

And , To tell u the truth ....

The day i put my eyes on "this guy",

I haf already had a feeling ferr him ...

But , I see that he has no reaction wen we "lepak" ..

So , i ignore ..

By then wen he confessed that he loved me ,

I'm already attached with his "best Fren" the First guy ..

HAIST ...

In silence , we met up and we chat ...

I laugh ..

He makes me smile and let me forget all my problems even ferr a minute ..

Now , i told him that itz over between us ..

I dont wan to meet him animore ..

BUT now i'm regreting it ...

Because IDK why ...

HAIST ...

Just wat shld i do now ?

Itz Like a mess ...
i made a messed and idk how to clear this mess up ...

I'm sorry HUBBY ......

I was unfaithful to u and i lied to u ..

I'm sorry ..

I'm soo sorry ......

Idk why i did this but i'm lack of your love , care and concern ..

Why cant u just love me like u used to when we first be together ?

Why must everything changed ?

If i have the power to changed the time and date ,

I would changed it to where we first met ..

And it'll be different ...

U keep on hurting me ...

Why ?

HMM .........
I tried to change ferr you ...

I tried to give u love because u said that u cant feel it ..

I tried everytink ...

But do u ever tink the same way ?

I totally cant feel anitink ...

Feels like ure just using me to give u name ...

IDK luhh ....

WHO shLd i trust rite now ?

WHO ??

I just dont know ...

HAIST ....

Soo stress with my life ....

HaisT !

2009-06-29T02:20:00.000+08:00

Its like only a few minutes ago we met , and he buat perangai ...

HMM !

Idk wat else shld i do ...

When i DONT want to fight w hym , He wanna pick a fight !

Wen we want to end this attitude ?

Haist ..

Both of us has the same horoscope ..

birthday falls on the same month its only that we had the different day ..

So boring know like this ..

Each tyme we meet , always fight !

Haiyooh !

Feel so miserable u know !!

HMM !

Paper luhh u ...

I mls uhk nk gado ngn u lagy !

SUPRISE!!!

2009-06-29T01:10:00.000+08:00

Ouhk ...

I was shock wen he msg me using his dad phone num at 7.06 p.m ..

I tot that they would be back in s'pore by Friday night ..

Instead , itz early in the morning ..

Yup .. =))

In the morning ...

HAHA !!

He was mad at me .. =((

HMM !!
Because , before he set off to Genting ,

He told me that if i LOVE him ,

DONT go out wen he was away as he's afraid i would do sumtink fooLish ..

Yup ..

At ferst i Listen ...

Then on Friday , I was bored ...

So , My Mrs Alice called for help ...

Yup help to werk ..

So , I went to werk and then wen out ..

W/O telling hym .. And wen he asked me to call him ,

I did not ..

Itz not thai i dont want to .. But No money Liao ..

So SORRY HUBBY !

I PROMISE I wont do it again ..

Janji !

And wen he return from Genting ,

He did not come home w an empty hand ...

he bought me sumtink ...

Itz a sweater ..

Itz not a normal sweater ..

But an Adidas brand ..

Soo sweet ..

THANK YOU HUBBY !!

I appreciate it a Lot !

ILY SHAYAANG !

muakx!~

Bored ..

2009-06-28T04:54:00.000+08:00

Today , He'll be back from Genting ..

One important tink is that i pray that Raj will not speed and all of them will be safe .. =)

And , they'll be back here in s'pore safely .. =)

Wish them a safe trip .. =)

itz like 3 days they are out of s'pore ...

So bored ... No one to hang out with ...

Sooo sad ... )=

Haish ...

Itz okey ...

Tonight , They'll be back ..!

Weeeeee !

Gonna hug Him !!!

Not letting him off ... haha ... =)

Missh you hubby ! =)